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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 04:53

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was 9 years of age.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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All the time i was locked up.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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And i lived it daily.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Im still living with it.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I will be 64.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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So, i spoilt her more .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Why is only the left side of my vagina bleeding, on and off?

She loved him until the end.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

What should I do if a girl whom I love asks me to be her friend?

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He resisted the act ,that day.

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And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was very sick at this time too.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Put me off passion for life!!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Who then, do I blame.?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Comes on , in middle age.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I never cut or harmed myself..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I have no regrets .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

(And it was in our own minds.)

As i do to all so called friends.?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Ive learnt so much.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

What did i know ?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I could never make a relationship work though!

I said to her

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

One cannot live in the past .

But ive been too sick for many years..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Would this be the day?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Was to survive, this bastard.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

We all went to grammer schools

But it wasn’t much.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She found it foreign!.

She wouldn,t have been !

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

It was going to be , some day.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

We were not on the streets..

I don,t even have a pension.

She married twice! .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She was in good health!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I think the readers, may guess!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But, we were locked up after school.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I was scared of men, in general

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Especially a lifetime of it.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

My life is so biszare .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

So whats the point in blame.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He knew the spot.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My family never makes their pension either.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

When she asked me how she looked .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

This is soul school!.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Why did i forgive my father ?

I waited trembling.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I write beautiful poetry .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was seconnd youngest,

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.